Discovering you are what they think you are.

The other day I was sitting on the couch with Stacy and Susie and we were just chatting. Somehow the issue of confidence and people's perception came up. So I come to discover that Susie views me as a very confident, sassy and funny girl. We had recently met and this was honestly my first time in discovering how someone who didn't really know me viewed me. I apparently give off an air of confidence, maturity and downright love for everything I do. I discussed this with my good friend Andrea, and apparently when she first met me she viewed me as a very confident woman as well.

It is so funny to me that just 2 1/2 years ago, if you had met me you would not have perceived that at all. I was shy, and very self-conscious and to be honest, stuck in a relationship that enabled this behavior. It is very interesting that I have grown into the person I have always wanted to be. I AM funny, I AM sassy, I have a lot to say, and am usually the life of the party ( or damn near close to it). Finding out that other people actually view you as you are is an amazing feeling. I'm not faking this confidence, I am that girl. And sure, we all have things we want to change about ourselves, but I really do love myself and where I am right now.

I remember going to one of the first parties when I started dating Nick. I just stood there and did not talk to anyone. I was scared of what people would think of me. NOW, I don't give a shit. If you don't like me then that is your problem. I ran into 3 people that run in Nick's group of friends recently, so they knew me back when I was quiet and shy. And, I had them laughing and joking with me, kept up an awesome conversation, and I wish that they had met as I am now. Not only because I am truly finding myself, but because I think they are awesome and I never let them in before because I was scared.

I credit some of this to the friends I keep. I am good friends with some of the best girls there ever were ( you know who you are!). Every time we are out I am getting introduced to new people constantly. They know everyone! And now I do too, and I can hold a conversation with these people and laugh with them and enjoy life. I know it sounds cheesy, but discovering you are what people view you as is an amazing feeling that I wish for everyone. No more faking being happy and confident!

Just want to say that I love myself. And it's nice to know that people can see that.
Now, to learn how to stop intimidating the men I'm attracted to.......

Love and Zombie Bites.
Lisa