Desire....or love?

I deserve more. I do. That's the bottom line.

I deserve more than making out with a random guy on a street corner. I deserve more than an ex contacting me after months of not talking to me. I deserve more. i deserve more than a fumbling encounter in my bed. I deserve more than another ex stalking me to the point of no return. I deserve more.

I've come to notice in the past few years that I am something quite amazing. That is not me being arrogant or ridiculously over zealous. I am somewhat of a force to be reckoned with. And you know what? I deserve something better than what life has been giving me. I deserve love! And lots of it, not just from friends, but from a man, not a boy, but a man, that is willing to give me the love I deserve. i know it won't just fall into my lap, but I am sick and tired of just waiting for it. I am done playing these games of infatuation and desire. I don't want a good fuck, I want someone to love me, for me. At any shape or size I choose to be!

I need some more time, to figure out the hard things in my life that I have been dealing with. But I can honestly say that I am open and ready for love, so, bring it on boys!!!