Trips, falls, and missing your best friend.

I had planned on going to Portland this Summer to see my sister. And I want to, desperately. I miss her very much and want to see her. But, I can't afford it. Yeah, I'm making decent money, but that is an expensive trip, something that is just out of my reach for now. So, I am planning on going next Spring instead. Long time to wait. Oh well.

I still get vacation hours though and my manager asked me to start thinking about when I would want to take them. So, depending on whether or not my mom has surgery again this Summer, my plan is to go to Philadelphia for about 5 days to visit Laura. I'm really excited about this, I haven't been on a trip in a year and a half, and I haven't driven anywhere besides Cleveland for a while. Plus Laura and I will get to have great adventures, hopefully with Becka as well. I miss Laura and the friendship we had, and now that we are both so busy, we barely talk anymore. So, this would be a chance to just have fun together and laugh a lot, which we both probably need. And of course there will be wrestling on lawns (not hardwood floors this time)!

Although I am excited for this trip, I am still really sad that I can't make it to Portland. Sometimes, I feel like there's a whole in my heart where my sister should be. We talk, and skype and all of that, but she's not here. I can't tell her everything as it happens, I have to tell her the bits and pieces that I remember. There are no movie nights, and craft nights, where we talk and laugh and cry into all hours of the night. She is my best friend, the best one I will ever have, and I miss her immensely. I know she moved because she needed to live her life, and it is probably better that we are not so dependent on each other anymore, but I miss that feeling of always having her to fall back on, to know that someone is always there to catch me. Trust me, I have amazing friends and parents that do those things for me too, but there is nothing like having your sister, your best friend, there for you. I just want to be a part of her life and not just get snippets of it. One day maybe I will move out of state, and off to the west coast. Seattle seems like my kind of place, and then I could actually see her more than once a year. Who knows?

Love and Zombie Bites. xox

Lisa